30 days of happiness....

Day 12

September 28th, 2009

My happiness has to deal with Hailey's sleeping patterns... Today was the second time Hailey has gone to sleep on her own... and on her own I mean I feed her and then I put her in her bed and shut the door behind me and let her cry herself to sleep. She doesn't cry for long because she is tired in the first place when I put her in there. It makes me happy to know that my daughter is becoming self sufficient (sort of). I am trying not to HAVE to give her a cup to go to bed that way I wont have to deal with breaking that habit in the future, but only time will tell. I also have been made aware that Hailey should not be in control of my sleep during the night. We are sharing a bedroom with my mom at the moment and she has made me aware of the fact that every noise Hailey makes I jump up and get her rather than just letting he fall back asleep on her own. Well the past 2 nights I have not jumped at her every need... (which was every half hour to an hour for the past month) and she has only needed me 3 times each night! I am hoping to soon be done with breastfeeding her especially since I start working tomorrow!

30 days of happiness....

Day 11

September 27, 2009

This was emailed to me and made me have hope for today:

This is from the website www.rejoiceministries.org

"I AM STANDING FOR THE HEALING OF MY MARRIAGE!... I will not give up, give in, give out or give over 'til that healing takes place. I made a vow, I said the words, I gave the pledge, I gave a ring, I took a ring, I gave myself, I trusted GOD, and said the words, and meant the words... in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in good times and in bad...so I am standing NOW, and will not sit down, let down, slow down, calm down, fall down, look down or be down 'til the breakdown is torn down!

I refuse to put my eyes on outward circumstances, or listen to prophets of doom, or buy into what is trendy, worldly, popular, convenient, easy, quick, thrifty, or advantageous... nor will I settle for a cheap imitation of God's real thing, nor will I seek to lower God's standard, twist God's will, rewrite God's word, violate God's covenant, or accept what God hates, namely divorce!

In a world of filth, I will stay pure; surrounded by lies I will speak the truth; where hopelessness abounds, I will hope in God: where revenge is easier, I will bless instead of curse; and where the odds are stacked against me, I will trust in God's faithfulness.

I am a STANDER, and I will not acquiesce, compromise, quarrel or quit.. I have made the choice, set my face, entered the race, believed the Word, and trusted God for all the outcome.

I will allow neither the reaction of my spouse, nor the urging of my friends, nor the advice of my loved ones, nor economic hardship, nor the prompting of the devil to make me let up, slow up, blow up, or give up 'til my marriage is healed."

30 days of happiness....

Day 10

September 26th, 2009

Hailey's First Birthday Party:

We had a blasty blast! It's a day that I will always remember!

30 days of happiness....

Day 9

September 24th, 2009

My baby Hailey turned one today. This makes me happy and yet still makes me sad. She is growing up and getting bigger everyday. And everyday it make me miss those days when she couldn't walk or crawl, when she'd just lay in arms all day if I let her. I am having a party for her on the 26th with all of her cousins, aunts, uncles, great aunt and uncles, friends, grandma, and even great grandma and grandpa. She is finally feeling better after I started giving her some infant Motrin... (she is getting some more teeth in and it is not very pleasant). I love my baby girl. I hope she has s wonderful first birthday!

30 days of happiness....

I had my first interview today for a job that I have been dreading to get. I know that I have to get a job but I wish I didn't have to. Well, I thought I did very badly... I haven't had a job in almost three years and I have never had a real interview before. I was extremely nervous and scared... My eyes filled up with tears a few times... the interviewer actually told me a few times to loosen up. With that said I could not believe it when they offered me the job. It is only part time but I am looking at it as a starting point. A part time job Monday through Friday will get me use to being away from Hailey more than just one day a week like I am now. So I'm happy that I got a job that will help bring income into my Mom's household. (This job by no means will allow me to afford my own place or even car at this point.)

30 days of happiness....

Day 7

September 16, 2009

Today I have had 2 things to be happy about one was actually from yesterday but I didnt really notice how great it was until today. These two happiness factors are both material objects, the first one is not a "need" but it's something that I "wanted" to get for Hailey. The second is a "makes life a lot easier if I had one" type of "need".

I was looking online at Walmart to price out toy baby strollers. Hailey is really starting to like to push things while she is walking so I thought for her birthday I would buy her a toy baby stroller. In the store they normally run around $10.00 but I wanted to make sure and I boy am glad I looked online!

This set is on clearance for $10.00 can you believe it? It comes with everything in the picture except the doll, a stroller, high chair/ swing, car seat and fully stocked diaper bag. I know she is still a bit young to play with most of these items besides the push stroller but I plan of saving the rest away until she is a little older.

My second thing I am happy for is from good friends of mine. She and her husband are letting me use their pack'n'play. I am using it as Haileys bed, and like I said its not something I necessarily have to have in order to take care of her, but it sure does make it easier to sleep. I no longer have to worry about he falling off the bed or waking up in the middle of the night and getting into things if she was sleeping on "mommy made bed" on the floor. Now that I have a place for her to sleep I can work on her sleeping through the night again! (That will be a truly happy day!)

30 days of happiness....

Day 6

September 15, 2009

Yesterday, as with almost every day lately, I was actively looking and applying for jobs. But yesterday, unlike the rest of the days, I received an appointment for an interview. I am super stoked! Obviously I dont know if I will get the job but at least my hard work of applying for jobs has paid off a little and I have an interview. My interview is next Tuesday the 22nd of September. Keep it in your prayers!

30 days of happiness....

Day 5

September 14, 2009

Hailey has begun weaning... I know that once you start feeding your baby any food you can officially say that you have begun weaning. But she has finally taken an interest in eating food along with only nursing to go to sleep and only when I am around. My sister is watching her when I go to work and for obvious reasons cannot nurse her to sleep. She is still waking up every few hours at night to nurse but once I get her her own bed I think she will stop. I am hoping to be completely done breastfeeding by the end of this year, and I think I am making good progress.

The food she has shown interest in liking so far are pasta salad, rice, cheerios, watermelon, scrambled eggs.. and some others but her most favorite it toast. She absolutly loves toast. I have a picture to upload but it might take me a few hours maybe even a couple days, but I will post one on here!

30 days of happiness....

Day 4

September 13, 2009

Hearing this song, this morning at church, spoke to me and it gave me peace inside from all the crazy things life has been handing to me.

What reason have I to doubt,

Why would I dwell in fear,

When all I have known is grace,

My future in Christ is clear.

My sins have been paid in full,

There's no condemnation here;

I live in the good of this,

My Father has brought me near.

I'm leaving my fears behind me now.

The old is gone, Yhe new has come,

What You complete is completely done.

We're heirs with Christ, the victory won.

What You complete is completely done!

I don't know what lies ahead,

What if i fail again?

You are my confidence,

You'll keep me to the end.

I'm leaving my fears behind me now.

The old is gone, The new has come,

What You complete is completely done.

We're heirs with Christ, the victory won.

What You complete is completely done!"

Completely Done - Sovereign Grace Music

30 days of happiness....

Day 3

September 12, 2009

Yesterday was my first day of work, and well it was work. I have never worked retail of any kind and by the end of the day my feet were killing me. I actually really liked it... I handed out samples of the new Jessica Simpson fragrance Fancy Love; assisted restocking Coach handbags, Bath and Body Works and Victoria Secret lotions and body sprays; I even helped someone pick out clothes that matched (not really in my job description or even in my line of work but whatever). Anyways, after a long 6 hours of being away from Hailey I was so happy to get to see her again and she was just as, if not more, happy to see me! I wish I had a picture to show you of our little reunion but I don't and even if I did I don't have a cord for my camera right now :( (that explains why my bog is so bare lately). My happy moment was seeing my daughter happy to see me!

30 days of happiness....

Day 2

September 11, 2009

Todays moment of happiness happened just a few minutes ago. My sister gave me a call to tell me the most wonderful news I have heard in a long time. This is the sister who has already gotten me a job working for her part time and for the holiday season. She was talking with a co-worker who by the end of the conversation offered me all of her available seasonal hours. My sister was only going to beable to give me maybe 30 hours...a month and now I just was handed another 40- 50 hours extra for each month.

About my new jobs. I have the same position with both jobs, just with a defferent company. I will be a "Fragrance Model". My first day is tomorrow, wish me luck!

restarting of the 30 days of happiness...

Day 1

September 10th, 2009

My hapiness today comes from two things one is the hope that somehow or another writing about what makes me happy each day will help get me out of my state a depression. and Two is what I am planning for Haileys 1st bithday. I wish that my original plan for her could go through just a small get together with my and my husbands friends at our apartment, or at least having her dad there. But that is NOT going to happen, so I have to get over that. I am planning a cupcake theme cake and ice cream party. Here is a pic of the cake I am going to attept to make:

Instead or black pink and white as the colors I will be using all different colors to make it more "child friendly"