Ready for 2010

This year has been full of ups and downs, mainly downs but at somepoint its has to go back up and I am just waiting for it to happen. I found out that life really doesnt happen the way you think it will. I never once thought that I'd be a single mom by the end of 2009.

But we are doing very well Hailey and I. We had an awesome Christmas with my family, and we are hoping for a fun filled new years.

I am ready to start my new life and the new year.

photo update!

I just figured out that the lap top I use has a memory card slot... I had a blonde moment for about a month and a half. So here are some photos from September 1st and on!

Spagetti Face!

She loves her some oreo's!

Eating her Birthday cake of her actual b!irthday

Getting her hair done for her party.

Playing with a new toy...

Going down a slide for the first time.

Playing dress up!

30 days of happiness....

Day 13

October 2, 2009

There are a few things that I am happy about (since it has been a few days since I last posted)

• I am starting to get "the hang" of my job, and that is making me really start to like it. The first and second day were really intimidating to me, only because I haven't held a regular job since 2007.
• Hailey is adapting very well to me going to work and being gone during the day. She is also adapting very well to no longer being attached to my hip if I am home, she will play with the other little kiddies and come to me when she needs something.
• I am proud of myself for exercising and trying to eat well and therefore happy for losing another 2 pounds! I have completely lost all my "baby weight"!

Well, there it is thats what made me happy for the past couple days!

30 days of happiness....

Day 12

September 28th, 2009

My happiness has to deal with Hailey's sleeping patterns... Today was the second time Hailey has gone to sleep on her own... and on her own I mean I feed her and then I put her in her bed and shut the door behind me and let her cry herself to sleep. She doesn't cry for long because she is tired in the first place when I put her in there. It makes me happy to know that my daughter is becoming self sufficient (sort of). I am trying not to HAVE to give her a cup to go to bed that way I wont have to deal with breaking that habit in the future, but only time will tell. I also have been made aware that Hailey should not be in control of my sleep during the night. We are sharing a bedroom with my mom at the moment and she has made me aware of the fact that every noise Hailey makes I jump up and get her rather than just letting he fall back asleep on her own. Well the past 2 nights I have not jumped at her every need... (which was every half hour to an hour for the past month) and she has only needed me 3 times each night! I am hoping to soon be done with breastfeeding her especially since I start working tomorrow!

30 days of happiness....

Day 11

September 27, 2009

This was emailed to me and made me have hope for today:

This is from the website www.rejoiceministries.org

"I AM STANDING FOR THE HEALING OF MY MARRIAGE!... I will not give up, give in, give out or give over 'til that healing takes place. I made a vow, I said the words, I gave the pledge, I gave a ring, I took a ring, I gave myself, I trusted GOD, and said the words, and meant the words... in sickness and in health, in sorrow and in joy, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in good times and in bad...so I am standing NOW, and will not sit down, let down, slow down, calm down, fall down, look down or be down 'til the breakdown is torn down!

I refuse to put my eyes on outward circumstances, or listen to prophets of doom, or buy into what is trendy, worldly, popular, convenient, easy, quick, thrifty, or advantageous... nor will I settle for a cheap imitation of God's real thing, nor will I seek to lower God's standard, twist God's will, rewrite God's word, violate God's covenant, or accept what God hates, namely divorce!

In a world of filth, I will stay pure; surrounded by lies I will speak the truth; where hopelessness abounds, I will hope in God: where revenge is easier, I will bless instead of curse; and where the odds are stacked against me, I will trust in God's faithfulness.

I am a STANDER, and I will not acquiesce, compromise, quarrel or quit.. I have made the choice, set my face, entered the race, believed the Word, and trusted God for all the outcome.

I will allow neither the reaction of my spouse, nor the urging of my friends, nor the advice of my loved ones, nor economic hardship, nor the prompting of the devil to make me let up, slow up, blow up, or give up 'til my marriage is healed."

30 days of happiness....

Day 10

September 26th, 2009

Hailey's First Birthday Party:

We had a blasty blast! It's a day that I will always remember!

30 days of happiness....

Day 9

September 24th, 2009

My baby Hailey turned one today. This makes me happy and yet still makes me sad. She is growing up and getting bigger everyday. And everyday it make me miss those days when she couldn't walk or crawl, when she'd just lay in arms all day if I let her. I am having a party for her on the 26th with all of her cousins, aunts, uncles, great aunt and uncles, friends, grandma, and even great grandma and grandpa. She is finally feeling better after I started giving her some infant Motrin... (she is getting some more teeth in and it is not very pleasant). I love my baby girl. I hope she has s wonderful first birthday!

30 days of happiness....

I had my first interview today for a job that I have been dreading to get. I know that I have to get a job but I wish I didn't have to. Well, I thought I did very badly... I haven't had a job in almost three years and I have never had a real interview before. I was extremely nervous and scared... My eyes filled up with tears a few times... the interviewer actually told me a few times to loosen up. With that said I could not believe it when they offered me the job. It is only part time but I am looking at it as a starting point. A part time job Monday through Friday will get me use to being away from Hailey more than just one day a week like I am now. So I'm happy that I got a job that will help bring income into my Mom's household. (This job by no means will allow me to afford my own place or even car at this point.)

30 days of happiness....

Day 7

September 16, 2009

Today I have had 2 things to be happy about one was actually from yesterday but I didnt really notice how great it was until today. These two happiness factors are both material objects, the first one is not a "need" but it's something that I "wanted" to get for Hailey. The second is a "makes life a lot easier if I had one" type of "need".

I was looking online at Walmart to price out toy baby strollers. Hailey is really starting to like to push things while she is walking so I thought for her birthday I would buy her a toy baby stroller. In the store they normally run around $10.00 but I wanted to make sure and I boy am glad I looked online!

This set is on clearance for $10.00 can you believe it? It comes with everything in the picture except the doll, a stroller, high chair/ swing, car seat and fully stocked diaper bag. I know she is still a bit young to play with most of these items besides the push stroller but I plan of saving the rest away until she is a little older.

My second thing I am happy for is from good friends of mine. She and her husband are letting me use their pack'n'play. I am using it as Haileys bed, and like I said its not something I necessarily have to have in order to take care of her, but it sure does make it easier to sleep. I no longer have to worry about he falling off the bed or waking up in the middle of the night and getting into things if she was sleeping on "mommy made bed" on the floor. Now that I have a place for her to sleep I can work on her sleeping through the night again! (That will be a truly happy day!)

30 days of happiness....

Day 6

September 15, 2009

Yesterday, as with almost every day lately, I was actively looking and applying for jobs. But yesterday, unlike the rest of the days, I received an appointment for an interview. I am super stoked! Obviously I dont know if I will get the job but at least my hard work of applying for jobs has paid off a little and I have an interview. My interview is next Tuesday the 22nd of September. Keep it in your prayers!